I Freaked Out A Little Bit

Who am I kidding, the other day I freaked out "a lot a bit" - if that's even a real saying.

I am hosting a women's event in T-minus two weeks and prior to Saturday morning, I felt nothing but excitement, peace, and complete bravery.

And then Saturday morning happened. I woke up and started talking to God as I usually do and when I started praying over my event, my brain went immediately into stress mode thinking of all the things I need to do, top one being I NEED TO ACTUALLY WRITE MY SPEECH!!!

And I started to panic and instead of praying for peace and confidence, I grabbed my phone and started looking up information, buying things I needed, and became overwhelmed with anxiety.

What was I thinking

Who am I to host an event

Why are 55+ people coming (I just thought maybe 5 would be good for my first event ever)

Why didn't God ask someone else to host this. The girl sitting next to me at church that day he weighed it on my heart looked like a much better candidate, I am sure

This is going to be a disaster

I should refund everyone right now, give away the 60 goodie bags I just put together to some good cause, cancel the lunch order, and pretend like nothing ever happened

And then the topic of my event came to my mind "Believing in YOU"

A topic I am going to speak on (whenever this magical speech comes to me) and a topic I clearly need for myself.

And then it hit me, how can I encourage others to believe in themselves, if I am failing to believe in the exact event God weighed on my heart.

He gave me the idea. He gave me the speakers, He gave me the audience of the exact women that need to be there..... So why wouldn't I trust him to give me the speech, the peace, the excitement, the courage, and the ability to BELIEVE in ME!

Its just another realization that we are human and God doesn't mind a good freak out every now and then because it gives Him the chance to teach us a loving lesson.

So lesson learned, thanks God.......And now it is time to get quiet and still and write my speech.

Because it is going to be a GREAT event, and if you still need a ticket and I didn't scare you, grab yours below.

With love and Friendship, Megan